I was thinking and thinking of writing something but not getting any thing to write, suddenly I thought to write about one of my experience in life, the story of some little children that I saw every day before entering inside the metro station. Lets hear now..

I stay in South Delhi. When I go to college everyday I take the metro route, just before entering the metro station, everyday I see three four kids who asks for either money or food. When I refuse to give them they start telling, "Aap to Katrina wali didi ho aap aur sundar ho jaoge, mujhe ek rupya do na." which means that you look like Katrina Kaif (read movie star) and you will get more beautiful. After listening some time I give money, some time I don't specially when I dont have change of 1 rupee or 2 rupees coin,I dont give. But underneath I feel sorry for them, that being so little they are begging at the moment, without getting education or playing on fiield..on the contrary just opposite to that metro station there they have MC Donalds inside i saw same age kids having their happy meals thet might not even know what it is like a day without food,small street kids might not want those tasty mc donalds burger or french,they might want just two chappati to eat..

I feel sad by seeing these distinct situation it makes me feel to feel for them,on another hand just some day some one told me dont give them money they will never want to work get hard earned money but do they ever know that how this girls and boys are manipulated to be,we have beggars act ,but how many people are putting that law on the floor,Is really the politicians making some effort to put this children atleat in govt school by giving them mid day meal,this is social issue but how many people are thinking,NGOs,5 year Plan etc all have some thing for chid's right but who is hearing no one does ,they acytually provide child right do they actually work?

this little meeni,chotu deserve a lot more than just begging for 2-3 rupees..what do u say...

ya in continuation...ya i was devastated i did not know what to react or how to react i left that job of mine again ....i started going here there to survive and that time i realized the value of monetary power...which i didn't had that time god everyone must be thinking what happened next ..incidentally i met a prince(name withdrawn) i did not know how i got so much attached with him..but yes he made my world upside down..he made me realized i have right to laugh too,he realized to live for own and not to care about what people think..most importantly he made me believe that even i have right to live in one line "he made me LIVE" he came as CHARMER,he is a BREEZE he made me fly on his path but as said the term breeze he is not constant ...he "IS" a prince who can just take care of his subjects and cant live with one...though this prince flew me away i never realized how my 6 months passed .i think of him as ILLUSION..i know he can never be my reality..though i crave that he becomes mine...he really helped this lone girl a lot in the lone city ...he will definitely be my PRINCE all my life whom i can never forget .....BUT SURELY HE WILL..

Today i will share my experience of the past few months that i have stayed in the city..I am not for this city i guess..sometimes i feel sad some times i feel elated.As sometimes i feel like i am breathing talking expressionless feeling less human being who has no soul inside ..I started this blog in a very pious manner but today after a year i guess when i sat down to write this blog i felt i am not the same person who i used to be when i first came here i was extremely innocent and has nothing to do with the world but now i feel that everything is with the world only..the society the people every other thing is related with each other..i joined a company in December i worked but alas i could not continue ..because of the chairman he tried to grab a piece of me as i was lone,when i joined the second company out of compulsion i again could not continue a man of 60 years fell in love with me as i was his line of interest !!!!!!i was devastated...........

TOMORROW

its midnight and tomorrow is a better day than today
my eyes just staring at the wall opposite
no sleep, no dreams,
i sit and watch the drama
unfolding before me;

like an empty canvas
waiting for an artist
i wait in anticipation
wondering when and wondering why;

i did all i could,
so i believe so,
what is happening is beyond my grasp
and i can only watch as a mere spectator;

a mere spectator in my own life
one moment its all the way up,
the next its hanging in balance,
the tension is nerve wracking;

patience is all i have
and patience is all that i need
as i watch the things unfold
and let things take shape at its own pace;

i waited a long time for this,
so what difference it is going to make
to wait a little bit more
but for how long should i be the villian in my own life;

i wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
i wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,
i wish i do not have to wait for long
i wish, i hope and i believe
(maybe) tomorrow will be better than today;